*Another from my should have published this two months ago series. I will get better, I promise.*
Well, I’m a week into college and I have to admit the change I feel in myself is unbelievable. I’m getting up in the morning, I’m more motivated and focused than I have been in years and I feel fantastic. I’m even setting an alarm on my weekend mornings and I’m getting up and getting things done. This weekend I managed a load of laundry, some research and I baked a cake all before 10 am… I was so proud of myself! Im also going to be much earlier, this evening I stayed up “late”. A few weeks back this would have meant I’d binged watched to until two in the morning however now I’m staying up late and it’s 11.30pm.
I’m only a week in and the work load is unbelievable and it’s brought up a few concerns (mainly can I afford to not earn a decent wage for the next four or more years) and it’s lead to a few conversations with S that we shouldn’t be having although that being said we are 18 months in so maybe we should, but there is currently an awful lot of unanswered questions about what my future will look like. But one thing I can say certainly is that returning to college was the best decision I ever made.